Hello, I'm still here,

It's been over 3 months since I came back on this beloved land of Finland. Time has been hard but I'm sure I'll find it rewarding afterward like I do find Italy now. Reading through the entries and still getting emails with questions of people going to Padova or anything related to what I went through and what I saw, is exactly that - rewarding. I feel like I did something. Even if mostly it was for my family and friends to be updated of what I'm doing there.

Sooner or later some of my information of the locations and activities are getting old. But the experience in itself never gets old. If you have any questions regarding Padova, studying abroad or any - even - personal questions, let me know about them!

I'm keeping a blog about my time after Italy (link removed, blog doesn't exist anymore), which appears to be much more challenging than keeping this blog. The shock that I experienced of being back home was at times devastating, but you gotta go through it to learn. During these months I've also got an internship place in southern Spain. So my adventurous days abroad are definitely not over. (My fierce plan is to conquer the world by seeing everything!) When the time comes, maybe there will be a blog about that as well. For the means of sharing. I'll keep my doors open :)

Lately I've been browsing through this blog, due to writing my thesis of it - and exchange blogs as a tool for contact. If you have any interesting comments or anything to say about that, I'll be more than happy to hear your thoughts. If it was you following this blog while I was actively writing, reading it sometimes or if you just found it.

Baci!

Goodbye,

I'm home. I'm healthy and my mood goes up and down. This blog will stay here for me and for you, but the time is over. The change is in front of me or is here or even done already. For the upcoming, there's still things I'll write about...

http://autumn-traveller.blogspot.com/

I have a dream of travelling along the autumn. I'd move (mostly) horizontally and change the place when ever the fall starts go for winter and the colorful leaves would start to fall.

En halua lähteä.

Helsinki tule mut hakemaan. Mennään!

Can I have an affair/relationship with a country?

I mean, I always feel like a freak because
I'm never able to move on like (snaps her fingers together)
this, you know.

People just have an affair,
or even... entire relationships.
They break up and they forget!
They move on
like they would have changed a brand of Cereals!

I feel I was never able to forget anyone I've been with
because each person have... you know, specific qualities.
You can never replace anyone.

What is lost is lost.
Each relationship, when it ends,
damages me. I haven't fully recovered.
That's why I'm very careful with getting involved, because... It hurts too much!
Even getting laid! I actually don't do that...
I will miss of the person, the most mundane things.
Like I'm obsessed with little things.

Maybe I'm crazy, but...

When I was a little girl, my mom told me that I was always late to school.
One day she followed me to see why.
I was looking at
chestnuts falling from the trees,
rolling on the sidewalk, or...
ants, crossing the road...
the way a leaf casts a shadow on a tree trunk...
Little things.

I think it's the same with people.
I see in them little details,
so specific to each other,
that move me,
and that I miss, and...
will always miss.

You can never replace anyone,
because everyone is made of such beautiful specific details.



Celine in the movie "Before Sunset"