Laura,

Happy birthday,
my dearest Laura!!

She left,

First I thought that I just got myself back, but in the end... even Fish Market, just ended up being the same old shit after the one and only dance partner left.

So Laura left today.

I'm so tired too. So much travelling within 3 weeks. Parties, new people, shopping till dropping, food, movies, staying up late... hmm and probably the only thing that separates this from before (which sounds exactly the same) is the company. I actually got to be me for that time. I could be cranky when I'm cranky, look horrible, be happy, be dancing strangely, talk in public things I would never talk in public among people who understand the language. And today, the last day of her stay, I could say at the airport, without wearing any make-up, wearing a hat because of my bad hair day, every possible pattern and color mixed up, with my baggiest jeans, that I felt confident. It was a high peak for me :)

Christmas calendar,

Mom, dad and Jussi in 14 days! (2 weeks)
Laura in 20 days! (2 weeks and 6 days)

Helsinki,

The past summer has been amazing.

Partly it's good to see how difficult it is to think of leaving.. even though it is so difficult. I'm leaving so much behind, taking so much with me and looking forward with my eyes (and heart) wide open.

These pictures are from two different evenings I spent with lovely Laura. One near Hietsu and one, taken tonight, at Freda (Check out the links to helicopter pictures of the places. The blocks are very typical finnish with the inner yard.)

Mennyt kesä on ollut upea.

Osaksi on mukavaa nähdä miten vaikeaa lähtemisen ajatteleminen on.. vaikka se onkin vaikeaa. Jätän niin paljon taakse, otan paljon mukaani ja katson eteenpäin silmät (ja sydän) avoinna.

Nämä kuvat on kahdelta eri illalta jotka vietin ihanaisen Lauran kanssa. Ensimmäinen on Hietsun läheltä ja toinen, tänään otettu, Fredalta. (Katso linkkien alta löytyvät helikopteri-kuvat, jotka kopioin Live maps ohjelman kuvista.)

Spring of decisions and friends,

It's dark and rainy outside. I'm at home in Raisio and it's 1:35AM.

I have been going through my picture archives because mom and I are developing pictures. I got 146 pictures that I want to develop and I should count them down to 50. That's going to be a hard job. However I caught very few lovely pictures of people that made a lifelong impact on me, even if we never see each other again.

Thank you for making my spring complete and directing me to this decision with those many talks, advices and moments. You're all priceless!

Ulkona on pimeää ja sateista. Olen kotona Raisiossa ja kello näyttää 1:35.

Olen käynyt läpi kuvakansioitani koska kehitetään äitin kanssa kuvia. Nyt minulla on 146 kuvaa, jotka haluaisin kehittää ja ne pitäisi karsia viiteenkymmeneen. Se tulee olemaan vaikea karsinta. Jokatapauksessa joukosta löytyy ihania kuvia ihmisistä, jotka tekivät minuun elinikäisen vaikutuksen, vaikkemme välttämättä enää näekään.

Kiitos kun teitte kevääni kokonaiseksi ja ohjasitte minut tähän valintaan kaikilla noilla keskusteluilla, neuvoilla ja hetkillä. Olette korvaamattomia!