Monday, July 7, 2008

Can I have an affair/relationship with a country?

I mean, I always feel like a freak because
I'm never able to move on like (snaps her fingers together)
this, you know.

People just have an affair,
or even... entire relationships.
They break up and they forget!
They move on
like they would have changed a brand of Cereals!

I feel I was never able to forget anyone I've been with
because each person have... you know, specific qualities.
You can never replace anyone.

What is lost is lost.
Each relationship, when it ends,
damages me. I haven't fully recovered.
That's why I'm very careful with getting involved, because... It hurts too much!
Even getting laid! I actually don't do that...
I will miss of the person, the most mundane things.
Like I'm obsessed with little things.

Maybe I'm crazy, but...

When I was a little girl, my mom told me that I was always late to school.
One day she followed me to see why.
I was looking at
chestnuts falling from the trees,
rolling on the sidewalk, or...
ants, crossing the road...
the way a leaf casts a shadow on a tree trunk...
Little things.

I think it's the same with people.
I see in them little details,
so specific to each other,
that move me,
and that I miss, and...
will always miss.

You can never replace anyone,
because everyone is made of such beautiful specific details.




Celine in the movie "Before Sunset"

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